Update:

I'm married, as most of you now know, but what only a few know I'm about to break the ice on.

I'm gonna be a dad as well.

Last week, my wife took a series of 7 tests in two days, in different time spans, two of them digital. Positive all around. We go to the doctor's tomorrow for her first check up, and to see how far along she is, as well as when it may be due. I'm not sure if I want a boy or a girl, but either or, I'm happy all around.

The part that I'm sick and tired about, is trying to repair and prove to a specific person that I've moved on, in hopes of just gaining a friendship. You know who you are, and I know I'm not breaking the barrier of a call out.

What sickens me, is I've been trying to pass this specific message for a while, and all I get is basically a fuck off. Apparently, our friendship meant that much.

I don't get it, really. I spent 13 years not caring for approval from everybody, let alone after my father had passed away. So why am I trying now?

I hope your happy now. I hope those last words you said to me hang bitter in your mouth, and I hope later on down the road, you finally feel that what you've done is the worst mistake. You always laid claim that you'd seen me get angry. No, you haven't. My wife's gotten closer to seeing it.

I hope your happy now, cause damn sure I know I am now.